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let us help her..
pls include her in our prayers.
she's a good person, a christian, a mother, a wife and a friend.
i knew her way back, when we we're still active in our church choir.
May Godbless us all.
thank you..
jing, God loves you. my prayers are with you. God will alleviate all the pain that you are going through..
we are here we love you. you may not remember me..
but i'm just here. the CYF are here. we are here for you..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Saturday, November 15, 2008
just an update
post that i wasn't able to upload here coz of my hectic sched. now just for a brief wrap up on how my nonsense life is going here it goes...
Nov. 2, 2008
I was kinda busy yesterday, taking care of my godson so i preferred to visit the cemetery tonight. I brought some candles and offered it to my relatives’ tomb. I thought of my departed loved ones and friends. How i miss their company. Their laughter, their presence and their care. Their body may be gone but their memory will be 4ever cherished here in our hearts. We all know our departed ones are now in the Almighty’s side.
My visit tonight in the cemetery is not like my usual routine during all souls day. This year, i wasn't able to get together with my long time friends, hang-out and have a chat with them. Tonight i was alone at the cemetery. Nobody was around but me. Simple, so quiet (well except for the annoying sound of a videoke machine on the neighboring cemetery) and sad. But i did just fine. It rained,. good thing i was able to bring my umbrella with me. I stayed for awhile. I prayed. I asked for forgiveness and guidance. This day of the dead is one special day. Oh well for me yes, definitely! May Godbless all the souls. May He bless us all too.
October 19, 2008
As of d moment i am feeling very weak. My whole being hurts. Tired so tired. So annoying to think that im feeling this kind of stuff without any accomplishments.
Last night i've been a really bad gurl.. Wild.. And dangerous. My nightmare came to life. I dreamt of that moment the other night. I did not expect it to happen so soon. Picture this:
It was Oct. 16, 2008
In the afternoon i was so happy. I bought him sum stuff that i know he would luv to hav. But my good mood was drained when he texted me some sort of a joke!. Oh well i did not find it funny. Tell me, will you find it funny if u asked the guy where he is and his reply was he was with another gurl? Not just any ordinary gurl but a BITCH! The joke was he's with the bitch you hate the most and you know that bitch was so obsess with ur guy. He betrayed u b4 coz of that btch. Now would you find his joke funny?
Me, i did not find it funny. I dnt get hes joke. I dont know, but with that simple text i flared up! Jokes are half meant you know...that's what my brain say's. I hated him for reminding me of the times when he's cheating on me. I was attending mass at redemptorist that moment. Though im in such a holy place the devil in me won. Teary eyed i got out of the church. He's joke was damn wrong timing. He ruined the peace within me.
Without any second thought, i went to the grocery bought matador long neck and sum century tuna. Boarded a jeepney and went to his place. I prepared sum food for my pulutan. After, i looked for all the empty bottles of beer that we consumed for the past weeks. And gues what? All the bottles that my hands get hold of came flying into the air. Landing in different directions. Haha
I couldn't care less. I was so full of rage, hatred and everything! I was in pain. All his shortcomings, his lies, and his mistakes came flashing in my mind. In a matter of seconds, the rum was full of broken glasses of beer. I was not yet contented i grab all the frames in the rum, broke it and thats it i was done.
After all the mess iv made, i went on with my drinking spree. I was crying heavily while drinking. Sad to say i did not finish the bottle. He arrived and stopped me from taking another shot. I cursed him i sweared. I wanted to kill him. I dont know how mad i was.
I heard him whisper sorry. But i wasn't listening. I cried my self to sleep. And in the morning? We were both full of cuts and bruises.
The funny thing is, i feel good after that. But the room? It's a total wreck! That will teach him a lesson.
Call me crazy or over reacting bitch, i don't give a damn.. For me, sometimes it's better to let loose of our bitterness. It's pretty refreshing you know.
july 5, 2008
An open letter
Tnx for taking good care of me from the time of my arrival. You're such a sweetie. Im numb inside out. I know u love me coz that's what uv been telling me. But d prob is i dnt knw if i can still believe in u.
So many doubts surround me. Instances that made me realize there's sumthng wrong in us. Still i want to thank you for that love and care that u showered on me.
june 4, 2008
My morning is rotten coz of u. Of ol pipol ur d 1 iv xpctd 2 hlp me thru this. Its ur fault anyway, yet i hv to suffer alone? Gues that is not at all fair. Oh wel, maybe im jus being s2pid thinking youd be there 4 me. Y am i always counting on you wen you always fail me? My patience is running out. Been trying to understand you the past months. I gez its wrong for me to trust u or worst its damn wrong for me to even love you! I feel like im just 1 of ur toys. Uv been playing me. But becoz of my 2 mch s2pdty iv let u play me. So mch so it hurts. Iv given up so much just for you. I bet its time for me to get back on u. Just wait ul see who this gurl uv been playing with. I swear il let u fil ol d pain u caused me. Go on enjoy ur time with those bitches of your's. We'l see who will suffer in d end!
Nov. 2, 2008
I was kinda busy yesterday, taking care of my godson so i preferred to visit the cemetery tonight. I brought some candles and offered it to my relatives’ tomb. I thought of my departed loved ones and friends. How i miss their company. Their laughter, their presence and their care. Their body may be gone but their memory will be 4ever cherished here in our hearts. We all know our departed ones are now in the Almighty’s side.
My visit tonight in the cemetery is not like my usual routine during all souls day. This year, i wasn't able to get together with my long time friends, hang-out and have a chat with them. Tonight i was alone at the cemetery. Nobody was around but me. Simple, so quiet (well except for the annoying sound of a videoke machine on the neighboring cemetery) and sad. But i did just fine. It rained,. good thing i was able to bring my umbrella with me. I stayed for awhile. I prayed. I asked for forgiveness and guidance. This day of the dead is one special day. Oh well for me yes, definitely! May Godbless all the souls. May He bless us all too.
October 19, 2008
As of d moment i am feeling very weak. My whole being hurts. Tired so tired. So annoying to think that im feeling this kind of stuff without any accomplishments.
Last night i've been a really bad gurl.. Wild.. And dangerous. My nightmare came to life. I dreamt of that moment the other night. I did not expect it to happen so soon. Picture this:
It was Oct. 16, 2008
In the afternoon i was so happy. I bought him sum stuff that i know he would luv to hav. But my good mood was drained when he texted me some sort of a joke!. Oh well i did not find it funny. Tell me, will you find it funny if u asked the guy where he is and his reply was he was with another gurl? Not just any ordinary gurl but a BITCH! The joke was he's with the bitch you hate the most and you know that bitch was so obsess with ur guy. He betrayed u b4 coz of that btch. Now would you find his joke funny?
Me, i did not find it funny. I dnt get hes joke. I dont know, but with that simple text i flared up! Jokes are half meant you know...that's what my brain say's. I hated him for reminding me of the times when he's cheating on me. I was attending mass at redemptorist that moment. Though im in such a holy place the devil in me won. Teary eyed i got out of the church. He's joke was damn wrong timing. He ruined the peace within me.
Without any second thought, i went to the grocery bought matador long neck and sum century tuna. Boarded a jeepney and went to his place. I prepared sum food for my pulutan. After, i looked for all the empty bottles of beer that we consumed for the past weeks. And gues what? All the bottles that my hands get hold of came flying into the air. Landing in different directions. Haha
I couldn't care less. I was so full of rage, hatred and everything! I was in pain. All his shortcomings, his lies, and his mistakes came flashing in my mind. In a matter of seconds, the rum was full of broken glasses of beer. I was not yet contented i grab all the frames in the rum, broke it and thats it i was done.
After all the mess iv made, i went on with my drinking spree. I was crying heavily while drinking. Sad to say i did not finish the bottle. He arrived and stopped me from taking another shot. I cursed him i sweared. I wanted to kill him. I dont know how mad i was.
I heard him whisper sorry. But i wasn't listening. I cried my self to sleep. And in the morning? We were both full of cuts and bruises.
The funny thing is, i feel good after that. But the room? It's a total wreck! That will teach him a lesson.
Call me crazy or over reacting bitch, i don't give a damn.. For me, sometimes it's better to let loose of our bitterness. It's pretty refreshing you know.
july 5, 2008
An open letter
Tnx for taking good care of me from the time of my arrival. You're such a sweetie. Im numb inside out. I know u love me coz that's what uv been telling me. But d prob is i dnt knw if i can still believe in u.
So many doubts surround me. Instances that made me realize there's sumthng wrong in us. Still i want to thank you for that love and care that u showered on me.
june 4, 2008
My morning is rotten coz of u. Of ol pipol ur d 1 iv xpctd 2 hlp me thru this. Its ur fault anyway, yet i hv to suffer alone? Gues that is not at all fair. Oh wel, maybe im jus being s2pid thinking youd be there 4 me. Y am i always counting on you wen you always fail me? My patience is running out. Been trying to understand you the past months. I gez its wrong for me to trust u or worst its damn wrong for me to even love you! I feel like im just 1 of ur toys. Uv been playing me. But becoz of my 2 mch s2pdty iv let u play me. So mch so it hurts. Iv given up so much just for you. I bet its time for me to get back on u. Just wait ul see who this gurl uv been playing with. I swear il let u fil ol d pain u caused me. Go on enjoy ur time with those bitches of your's. We'l see who will suffer in d end!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
why men cheat
When a high-profile man is caught with someone other than his wife, it's enough to get the collective voice of women asking a whole bunch of why questions.
Why do men cheat? Why can't they control themselves? Why do they have to pay for it? The answer may seem simple at first (if he's not being satisfied at home, he'll roam the neighborhood). But the reasons are a little more nuanced than that.
Some guys are simply serial cheaters - think about the trail of rumors that followed Bill Clinton into the White House. But other guys seem like upstanding citizens until wham, bam, thank you ma'am, they show exactly how low they're willing to go. What is it, then, that triggers a normally faithful man to cross the line from being committed to breaking trust, from home cooking to ordering out?
1. Power (or Cash)
It's not to say that entry-level men who make minimum salaries don't cheat, but it's also pretty clear that powerful men with the means to withdraw hefty sums of cash (for hotels, gifts, prostitutes) are often candidates. It's not just because they have more options; it's also because they think their invincibility in the office will also extend to their private lives, which they assume will remain private no matter how high-profile they may be. Arrogance is a form of blindness, after all.
2. A Sudden Change in Status
Maybe your guy isn't a celebrity, but has he gone from middle management to senior exec lately? Simply making the leap from corporal to captain can put a guy in a difficult spot - he's suddenly separated from his office crew, facing challenges at work that you may not relate to, and looking for someone to tell his woes to - even if it costs $1,300 to get her to keep quiet and leave after he's seemingly unburdened himself.
3. The Family Circus
I'm not saying it's right, and I'm not saying it's fair, but some men can feel like they're last in the family pecking order once the gaggle of children dominates schedules, time, and his wife's attention. That doesn't mean that kids drive their fathers to cheat, nor does it mean that families are to blame. It just means that the situation can make some men more vulnerable to be influenced by...
4. An Unexpected Ego Stroke
A note from an ex, a compliment from a co-worker, a good rapport with a server at his favorite bar. If the affection in his primary relationship dwindles as time goes on, a guy's hormones can skyrocket when he feels the charge of a new woman showing some attention. Most times, innocent bantering is just that, but coupled with other triggers, the chemical reaction is a dangerous one.
5. Cyber 'Safety'
Plain and simple: The Internet has made it easier for men to feel safer-in everything from looking for dates and mates to sending innuendo-laced IMs to the hot coworker on the third floor.
The apparent safety of flirting in his own keyboard can build an unhealthy feeling that everything he's doing is OK, making it more likely he can slip into making some very stupid choices. An addictive personality only compounds the problem. To find out if he might have one, take this important quiz.
But don't live in fear, either. Here are 10 simple secrets successful spouses know that will keep a marriage firing on all cylinders for years to come.
Why do men cheat? Why can't they control themselves? Why do they have to pay for it? The answer may seem simple at first (if he's not being satisfied at home, he'll roam the neighborhood). But the reasons are a little more nuanced than that.
Some guys are simply serial cheaters - think about the trail of rumors that followed Bill Clinton into the White House. But other guys seem like upstanding citizens until wham, bam, thank you ma'am, they show exactly how low they're willing to go. What is it, then, that triggers a normally faithful man to cross the line from being committed to breaking trust, from home cooking to ordering out?
1. Power (or Cash)
It's not to say that entry-level men who make minimum salaries don't cheat, but it's also pretty clear that powerful men with the means to withdraw hefty sums of cash (for hotels, gifts, prostitutes) are often candidates. It's not just because they have more options; it's also because they think their invincibility in the office will also extend to their private lives, which they assume will remain private no matter how high-profile they may be. Arrogance is a form of blindness, after all.
2. A Sudden Change in Status
Maybe your guy isn't a celebrity, but has he gone from middle management to senior exec lately? Simply making the leap from corporal to captain can put a guy in a difficult spot - he's suddenly separated from his office crew, facing challenges at work that you may not relate to, and looking for someone to tell his woes to - even if it costs $1,300 to get her to keep quiet and leave after he's seemingly unburdened himself.
3. The Family Circus
I'm not saying it's right, and I'm not saying it's fair, but some men can feel like they're last in the family pecking order once the gaggle of children dominates schedules, time, and his wife's attention. That doesn't mean that kids drive their fathers to cheat, nor does it mean that families are to blame. It just means that the situation can make some men more vulnerable to be influenced by...
4. An Unexpected Ego Stroke
A note from an ex, a compliment from a co-worker, a good rapport with a server at his favorite bar. If the affection in his primary relationship dwindles as time goes on, a guy's hormones can skyrocket when he feels the charge of a new woman showing some attention. Most times, innocent bantering is just that, but coupled with other triggers, the chemical reaction is a dangerous one.
5. Cyber 'Safety'
Plain and simple: The Internet has made it easier for men to feel safer-in everything from looking for dates and mates to sending innuendo-laced IMs to the hot coworker on the third floor.
The apparent safety of flirting in his own keyboard can build an unhealthy feeling that everything he's doing is OK, making it more likely he can slip into making some very stupid choices. An addictive personality only compounds the problem. To find out if he might have one, take this important quiz.
But don't live in fear, either. Here are 10 simple secrets successful spouses know that will keep a marriage firing on all cylinders for years to come.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I LOVE THIS SONG.. IT'S TOTALLY ME!
TAKE A BOW - RIHANNA
Ohh
How bout a round of applause
yea
Standin ovation
Ohh yeaa
yea yea yea yea
You look so dumb right now
Standin outside my house
Tryin to apologize
Your so ugly when you cry
Please
Just cut it out
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
You betta hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin bout girl I love you your the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please
What else is on
Ohh
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
Ohhh
And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin me believe that you could be
Faithful to me let's hear your speech out
How bout a round of applause
Standin ovation
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
But it's over now
Ohh
How bout a round of applause
yea
Standin ovation
Ohh yeaa
yea yea yea yea
You look so dumb right now
Standin outside my house
Tryin to apologize
Your so ugly when you cry
Please
Just cut it out
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
Grab your clothes and get gone
You betta hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin bout girl I love you your the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please
What else is on
Ohh
And don't tell me you're sorry cause you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
Ohhh
And the award for the best liar goes to you
For makin me believe that you could be
Faithful to me let's hear your speech out
How bout a round of applause
Standin ovation
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtains finally closin
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
So go on and take a bow
But it's over now
nothing at all
i got nothing to say at all..
i am completely in pain..
i am lost
busted
wasted
and everything..
life sucks!!
i am completely in pain..
i am lost
busted
wasted
and everything..
life sucks!!
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